Son of life, fill the
earth of my body and Soul with Your life, so that I may have something
with which to appear among the living angels.
Your life I would be unable to breathe the air that the angels breathe, or
to eat the bread that angels eat. I would again be an exile outside the
gates of the heavenly kingdom, before which gates even now I lie like a
world lures me to its bread, and then stones my soul.
lures me to a fish, and then stones my heart.
It lures me to light, and then shrouds my mind in darkness.
do not despise one who is poor, but the world has become despicable to me;
because, though it is poor, it pretends to be rich. Neither do I despise
one who is selfish, but the world has become despicable to me; because,
though it is selfish, it pretends to be generous. Nor do I despise one who
is insane, but the world has become despicable to me; because, though it
is insane, it pretends to be sane. Nor do I despise one who is sick, but
the world has become despicable to me; because, though tuberculous, it
intentionally contaminates the water of the healthy. I despise the
imposter and the charlatan,
was once a rich shopkeeper who died. His shop and its goods were bought up
by neighbors and his shop stood there empty, but always with the name of
the deceased merchant still over the doors, together with lists of all the
valuable gifts in the shop.
too am like this sort of shop," I say to myself in shame. "I
still bear the name of life, but my life is all bought up by my neighbors."
Son of God, Son of Life, fill my earthliness with life.
clear the stones from my soul, and nourish it with true bread.1 Purge
my heart of serpents and fill it with Yourself. And dispel the darkness
from my mind, and flood it with the light of heaven.
I shall not truly return to life, if only my soul returns to life while my
heart remains stuffed with mortal desires. Nor shall I be resurrected into
Your Kingdom, O Lord, if only my heart is purified while my mind still
remains filled with darkness.
until all three fountainheads within me are clarified, my life will be
bereft of life. If one is clarified, the other two will muddy it.
two are clarified, the third is sufficient to muddy them both. Each of the
three fountainheads within me is either the contaminator or the saviour of
the other two.
Son of Life, fill my earthliness with life. You are my Wisdom, for in You lies not only divine mentality, but also divine
virginity and divine sanctity. For had You not been born out of divine
virginity and divine sanctity, You would not have been Wisdom, but finite
human knowledge and expertise.
Son of God, You are the
only nourishing bread of my life. I beseech You, do not turn Your face
away from me, a sinner. You are the only living water that can water the
parched desert of my life.2
beseech You, do not turn Your face away from me, a sinner. You are the
only fresh air, that can heal the infirmity of my life.
beseech You, do not turn Your face away from me, a sinner. But have mercy
on me and save me!
Cf. John 6:22-40.
2. Cf. John 7:38.